Monday, November 5, 2012

The best way to kill yourself

Have you ever searched the internet to find the best way to kill yourself?
Well I have, and it is damn near impossible to find the answer.

It looks like I have found the one question the Internet is unable to answer. Yay! Hurray for me, now let's change that.

So why would I be searching for such a thing? I don't plan on ever killing myself, not even in the most dire of situations. Although I have not always felt like that(depression is a bitch). No, now I love the constant stream of surprises that life has to offer way too much to ever kill myself. And I know that no matter how bad things get, there is almost always a day that things will be better again. Well that's how it works with depressions anyway.

But there are a few exceptions to this state of mind.
And if you are reading this, you probably already know them.
There are some perfectly good reasons to off yourself out there and I think it is up to you to decide.

So why would I try to help you do something as stupid as this?
Quite frankly, I'm not doing this for you, I'm doing it for me.
I am just sick and tired of those stupid bastards that are doing it WRONG. These guys cause pain and suffering to other people whilst trying to end their own.

Why the hell would you jump in front of a train! Just think of the consequences! It's messy, quite possibly painful and you run the risk of surviving. Think of the people who's job it is to clean that shit up. And the driver! It is the stuff of nightmares. Stop this insanity now!
Also you make me late for my appointment. I hate that.

There are far better ways to kill yourself without giving anybody nightmares. All you need is a little imagination. Which you are probably lacking right now because you decided to kill yourself.

So I'll go ahead and assume you are looking for a way to kill yourself in a way that is not painful.
You want to die and not hurt anyone else. You want to off yourself quickly and without a chance of backing out at the last moment. Well fat chance. There is almost always a way to back out at the last moment and if you feel you might feel the need to, then you have not made up your mind yet and you should see a counselor. Also you are always going to hurt other people but the decent thing to do is to keep that to a minimum. So here are a few good ways to end it all.

Finding the answer yourself
Don't search the internet for the best way to kill yourself, you will only find people who are trying to stop you or people who attempt to be funny about it(and almost always fail to do so)
Answer: reverse the question.
Search for "safety" and you will find danger.
Search for "survival" and you will find dangerous situations where the chance of killing yourself is almost guaranteed.
There is another risk here though. Doing something crazy ass dangerous could be just the kick you need to find the will to live again. That's what happened to me (true story)
Look for "success stories" searching for "killed himself" and focusing on news sites gives a lot of results. Try to pick the least messy ones please.
Stupid American gun law...
Most suicides are gun related and thus messy so use Google translate to search in a different language then English, pick a country where guns are forbidden for best results.
A risk here is that you find many stories of family members who were traumatized. But you can use this information to prevent that as much as possible.
Take a day to write a good note to explain yourself and your decision. Even if you don't believe me, there are always people out there that like you and they will be hurt. Understanding will help them deal with it.

Finding the answer yourself is going to take way too long, I know, I have spent days on it. I tend to obsess over things. I can't stand the fact that the internet didn't have an answer to such a simple question.
So here are my conclusions. For the impatient readers, my personal favorite can be found at the bottom.

If you have decided to kill yourself you essentially have given yourself a free pass to be a daredevil, so be on the lookout for anything marked with warning labels. "Danger" will not be your middle name, it will be your last.

Dangerous situations
Finding dangerous situations that are not messy or hurt anyone else is very difficult unless you happen to already be a stuntman or can fool the psychological test it takes to become one, but then it takes too long anyway. By far the best one is to have a climbing "accident" on your own. But you need mountains in a near abandoned place. So perhaps you need some traveling money. Keep in mind that the longer it takes for someone to find your mangled body, the less messy it becomes. And pick a good spot for gods sake, nice and high and try to go head first. No, a High building will NOT do!

Dangerous places
Frozen bodies are quite clean. Also freezing to death seems to be quite painless. The Everest, the North,South pole are all very beautiful and dangerous places and a great final destination. They might be a bit hard to get to, so why not take a skiing trip. The risk of avalanches is mostly prevented by a special group of people who call themselves avalanche experts what they lack is time to prevent all of them. Have a chat with them to find out where you should definitely not go, then go there. Pick a spot that won't cover an entire village when it is triggered please, and do it at night or in the evening to prevent them from finding you if you survive the initial impact.
Could be really painful, so you could alternatively take off your clothes or get wet and sit in the snow in an abandoned place with a bottle of hard liquor. Alcohol might make you feel warm, but it actually speeds up the hypothermia and it takes the edge off the unpleasant shivering. You will feel drowsy after a bit and simply go to sleep.

Killer electronics
High voltage is quite painful, I know those warning signs are pretty, just don't do it if you can't stand the pain.
Forget about defibrillators, the ones you could get your hands on have too many safety features. Unless you are smart enough to rig one, this is not an option.
All I did was reverse safety regulations to come up with this.
It doesn't take high voltage to stop a heart. Regular mains current will do fine. The trick is to get the current to pass the right spot for long enough. So rig those breakers before you take the toaster for a bath.
Don't actually take the toaster for a bath though, the current flies everywhere and you have no control over the outcome.
For the best result you should be looking for something that is 375 Volts at a frequency of 60 Hertz alternating current. Hearts don't like 60 herz, 5000 Hz is even better, but hard to find. 60 and 5000 herz are sweet spots. Slightly more or less, no problem, but in between is a surefire way to fail.
Conveniently America has chosen 60 Hz for it's mains power.
A 5 second blast of at least 75 milliamps over your chest cavity should do the trick.
Arms conduct electricity quite nicely so take this opportunity with both hands and get a good grip on the situation. Better yet, tape the wires to your chest at the position where they usually place the paddles of the defibrillator and flip a switch. The result is a heart attack, if not, try again. Ask anyone who has had a heart attack about the pain. Most people describe it as moderate. As far as this particular current I have no idea how it feels. But I find the shock from the regular mains quite exhilarating so I might not be the best person to give advice on that.
The risk here is that you might also burn your house down when you connect yourself to the mains due to the rigged breakers. A practical tip is to do this standing up with wires that are just the right length so that when you fall down the connection is broken.
Remember, safety first. And in this case for other people naturally.
Electronics isn't very hard so you could take this one step further and build the ultimate death machine. Have a look at how electric power conversion works. You are looking for a flyback transformer. This could also provide you with a handy alibi if you want to make it look like an accident while reducing the risk of burning your house down.

Air in the wrong place
Commonly thought to be a good way to kill yourself is an air bubble in your bloodstream. Take a syringe and squirt some air in a vain in order to produce a heart attack. This is bullshit, don't do it. You need way more air then you think the chances of you surviving are way to high. The heart is a pump, for it to stop pumping almost half of it should be filled with air, and even then, sloshing due to falling might start the whole process back up again. Also air in the vanes and heart don't seem painless to me.

Deprivation
Sounds simple enough, just don't do the things you need to remain alive.
Going without food is not an option. It takes way too long and one of the symptoms is bad decision making. Although your hallucinations might make it a pleasurable experience after a while, keep in mind that Gandhi took 21 days to meet his maker.
Without water you can survive up to 5 days maximum. The worst symptoms come last and unless you like lethargy, irritability, vomiting and diarrhea, this is not the way to go. In an exceptional case a Japanese hiker survived for 27 days because he went into a hibernation like state. This just shows that your body will not be so eager to die as you might be. Deprivation does not work well enough.
Unless... it is air you deprive yourself of.

Asphyxiation
We need air, don't get any and it is all over within 5 minutes. If you have two hands you can choke yourself. The problem there is that you loose consciousness first, lose you grip, and then start breathing again. So you need something that holds on when you can't anymore. Luckily a hangman's noose was designed for exactly such a purpose and really easy to make. You don't actually have to hang yourself, perhaps you don't have anything to hang from, in that case just pull it tight or use a door nob. Friction will prevent the noose from loosening up quickly so there is no easy way back. This is a good way to die because there is no pain and you will experience one final orgasm before you go. If you want to fall from a couple of feet, you might break your neck, this is quicker. But judging the height and amount of rope can be tricky and painful if you fail. Also necks can be really sturdy.

Another way to do something similar but should really be called poisoning is taping a bag over your head. I saw that one in a movie, there seems to be some panic involved. All you need is a sturdy plastic bag and some duct tape. Put the bag over your head and tape it tight around your neck. You will not die of lack of oxygen but an overdose of carbon dioxide(the stuff you breathe out) At first you might experience some panic as your body struggles to keep alive. But after that you will gently go to sleep as the carbon dioxide relaxes you. The possibility of a slight headache should be the only pain involved.

Butane
Not really a sure way to die, but surely one of the most fun ones since it causes euphoria. This is the stuff that kills you if you stick your head in the oven, which is not something I recommend because you might blow up part of the neighborhood. It is very hard to turn the gas back off once you are dead. But most people don't realize that it also comes in handy portable suicide packages that people generally use to refill their gas lighters. The effects are:  euphoria, drowsiness, narcosis, asphyxia, cardiac arrhythmia, temporary memory loss and frostbite. Narcosis is the reason why might miss your target. It's hard to kill yourself if you are passed out. The jet of liquid is extremely cold when it comes out so don't go spraying this directly in your throat, that will kill you, but in a painful way. Use a bag or a plastic bottle with a hole cut into it to spray, then inhale to your heart's content. Use enough and you might get a heart attack. I'm not sure if the only cause of asphyxia is purely caused by spraying it directly in your throat, but hey, you are about to die, you might as well give it a try. And if you are euphoric enough you might not even mind.

Drugs
To keep it simple we'll say that there are two types of drugs, sedatives and stimulants.
Most stimulant overdoses might produce something called stimulant psychosis which has as a symptom "thought disorder" which might make you change your mind or make you do something stupid that you were trying to prevent in the first place. Also seizures are not something to look forward to.
Although sedative overdose also messes with your thought process, you will probably not be able to move or do anything about it. Go for sedatives.


No doctor or pharmacist in their right mind will give you a possibly lethal dose to take home with you so you have to save it until you have at least two or three bottles.

Sleep medication may seem like the best drug to use especially in combination with alcohol, but make sure you take enough. An overdose will relax you to such extent that your just stop breathing. This is called respiratory center depression, respiratory depression or respiratory failure. You can use this to search for the best sleeping solution. 5% can lead to paradoxical reactions. Meaning that you might not fall asleep at all. It's gonna be a bitch if you are one of those, but you will probably die anyway.
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I knew in the back of my mind that there are probably combinations of drugs out there that could be the best solution to this question but unfortunately I do not have a medical degree.
After the long time that this article has been up, I have finally come across a comment that shows great promise to actually be The Best Way to Kill Yourself using pills.

Easy way out  April 19, 2015 at 11:45 AM
The combination of a benzodiazepine and an opiate is a very easy way to go into respitory arrest and die like you are just falling asleep. Many doctors will even prescribe these two medicines at one sitting. Tell them you are having panic attacks and you have taken Xanax before and it has worked and then tell them you have terrible back aches and Vicodin or norco has helped you in the past. Then you have your cocktail. Take the month supply of both all at once. You will get a nice buzz, fall asleep, and go into respitory arrest while you are sleeping. If you want to take an extra step as a fail safe (in case you are found) also take a full bottle of extra strength Tylanol. Get these pills all together and then dispose of all the bottles before you take the pills. Even if you are found they will not know how to treat you, they will probably try to hit you with narcan which is given for opiate overdoses first, this may stop the respitory arrest but then the Tylanol will cause your liver to fail. This whole time you will be out. Better yet just get a motel room and take the aforementioned pills. The combination of opiates and benzodiazepines is one of the most common pharmaceutical deaths. It will work if you do not have a tolerance. If you do have a tolerance the opiate and benzodiazepine will simply put you to sleep while the Tylanol does the work. I suggest 75 Tylanol extra strength pills.

Tobacco(stimulant)
You know it's bad for your health to smoke it, but did you know nicotine is also a pesticide?
1 cigarette contains approximately 1mg, you need 30 to 60 milligrams(120 milligrams if you are a heavy smoker) so boil the packs of smokes for about an hour, take out the tobacco and keep boiling till most of the water has evaporated, the bitter tasting gooey substance is best taken with some coffee. But nicotine can also penetrate the skin easily so you could use it as an ointment. Alternatively you could stick all the nicotine patches of an entire pack on you at once. Now sit back and wait for any of the following, vomiting, nausea, diarrhea, headaches, fainting, difficulty breathing, pallor, sweating, palpitations, lisps, stomach pains/cramps/bloating, seizures, weakness, drooling, hypertension, stimulant psychosis and finally death. Scratch the coffee, make that a bottle of whiskey. If you are still alive after 4 hours, up the dosage. Didn't I tell you stimulants were a bad idea?



Poisoning
No way back from that one, but if you mess up with the dosage or pick the wrong one you are entering a world of pain. Really the only way to do it right is to do the homework.
There are many substances out there that are bad for you and will kill you. Almost anything can if you take enough of it. Even something as benign as water. The term we are looking for here is "Lethal dose 50" (LD 50) this amount will kill 50% of the test subjects. So you take twice that amount just to be sure. But that's the whole point. Even if you take 3 or 4 times that, there is always a chance that paramedics counter it or you just don't die from it. And almost all overdoses are slow painful deaths.
So do it in seclusion so those pesky medics can't get to you.
But there are a few exceptions.

The good poisons are generally well protected and regulated so they are difficult to get your hands on. Which makes this one of the hardest ways to kill yourself.

Botox yes, the preferred tool of beauty experts to prevent wrinkles. It actually is a severely watered down version of the most powerful toxin known to man called botulinum toxin. a mere 90–270 nanograms of botulinum toxin could be enough to kill an average 90-kg (200-lb) person, and four kg of the toxin, if evenly distributed, would be more than enough to kill the entire human population of the world.
That's how dangerous it is so there is no way you could get your hands on that right?
Well... there might be a way. It is a naturally occurring toxin produced by a bacteria that is commonly found in soil and water. It is the main reason why government agencies freak out when there are dead animals in the water in a hot season. The only thing this bacteria hates is oxygen and acid. I'm sure you can come up with a way to meet it and make friends with it. All it needs is a low oxygen environment that is nicely warm and moist. This little sucker's neurotoxin will paralyze your muscles and since the heart is a muscle and you need muscles to breathe... well you get the idea. This is painless but you might end up killing the one trying to give you mouth to mouth after you drank from your muddy water  collection.

Carbon monoxide(CO)
It's a gas, so make sure nobody else breathes it in. This is the evil cousin of carbon dioxide(CO2), the stuff you breathe out. It binds to the red blood cells so they can't take up oxygen anymore. So that means if you whiff up enough of it, there is no way to save you other then treatment with 100% oxygen within minutes. Carbon dioxide is produced when stuff burns, carbon monoxide is produced when stuff burns with very little oxygen.
You might get a light headache and feel sleepy, then you die. Nice side effect is that you will look all pink cheeked and healthy.
How do you get your hands on something so wonderful?
Anything that burns but not quite good enough. Faulty furnaces, heaters, wood-burning stoves propane fueled equipment. Point is, they have to be faulty, which in our case means plug the air inlet until it nearly stops working. Car exhaust is a popular one, might be a bit smelly and make sure you don't have a catalytic converter installed.
There is also a nice plastic solvent called Dichloromethane or methylene chloride which niftily produces CO right in your blood when you inhale its fumes. Also it makes you blind, but you don't care about that right? Sadly it is now banned in Europe.
Alternatively you could fill a pan with wood chips or any other dry organic matter, put it on the stove or a special burner, the hotter the more gas will be produced. The resulting gas from that is called Syngas which is a mixture of non-toxic hydrogen and our precious carbon monoxide. This stuff is extremely flammable so keep it away from the fire by using a good sealing lid with a hole and a hose attached.
[edit 2015-10-10]
Sean Peezy suggests to get a small grill. Get 5-10 pounds of charcoal. Let it burn outside your car for awhile until the charcoal is 'glowing'. Put it in your car with you, roll up windows, listen to some music and drink some beer. Look at pictures, write a note, you will be asleep within 5 mins and dead within 10. No pain. No shortness of breath. Maybe a headache or dizziness right before you fall asleep.
Helium
A good alternative to Carbon monoxide because it uses the same principle without the risk of burning anything down. If you do it well, it is not only deadly, it is also hilarious. You probably all know the effect of inhaling a good whiff of helium from one of those floating party balloons and you probably all have done so at one time in your life. Well what da ya know, it is also dangerous. Because if you breathe helium you are not breathing (enough) oxygen and the strange thing is that your body can't tell the difference so you have no idea that you are suffocating.
The best way to administer a lethal dose is to get yourself a helium canister and an oxygen face mask and connect the two.(I'm not entirely sure how)
Try not to speak or you will laugh your head off, which also sounds lethal but hasn't been proven to be effective yet.
[Edit 2015-10-10] Thanks for your comment Caleb, even though I knew Helium was dangerous for years, I did not include it in here because I'm an idiot sometimes.

Oh shit, I will get into so much trouble posting this and leaving the comments switched on. But I do it all for the good cause. Let me know if any of my tips fail, I know I don't have to count on success stories. I'm not stupid. Those will be determined by process of elimination.

Please remember to copy, duplicate and share this. I don't know how long it will remain here. I might even be doing something illegal here. I'll have to look into that.

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    1. I tried pills and a gun bit some one was around to stop me or take me to hospital so ill try hanging or cut my wrists or the car igzaust sounds good to.im tired of being hurt this life is hrll i lost my kids .wife and now recent best friend girl friend i believe in god but i thing god maybe a devil or the devil for letting me go threw all this shit so i am seriously wanting it over i hope its like unplugging a tv and never plugging it back in.death that is.i have no one to talk to and i am on ssi dissabled and its depression all day every day for me.i am told im a handsome man but i dont see it and i hate myself i screw up everything or everything has screwed me up so fuck it i say and by the way i still love her after all she has done to hirt me now ill get rid of my care then ill ve done im so tired of life and being hurt.GLAD IM NOT CLOSE TO ANY ONE .THANK YOU PUBLISHWR AND I THINK IT WAS NICE OF YOU TO POST THIS. GOD SPEED.

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    2. You are way too cute to kill yourself. Sorry, I just realized how that sounded: If you're a dog, then go ahead. I hope you didn't kill yourself .
      (hug from a total stranger).

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    3. how you doing Hannica. I would love to hear you are calmer and feeling great

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    4. your such a beautiful girl I know how you feel I feel exactly the same way

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    1. i just cant feel anything anymore. and well...i don't see a point anymore

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    2. You will need a lot of sleeping pills, and unless you collect them for months I'm not sure you will be able to. I was looking into my sleeping pills and it seems impossible. Look at this:
      ld50 of diazepam is 720mg/kg
      ld50 of zopiclone is 827mg/kg
      Diazepam comes in pills of 2mg and zopiclone max is 7.5 mg. Let's say I'm 70 kg. so I will need 50400 mg of diazepam or 25 200 pills; and 57 890mg of zopiclone or 7 717 pills. BUT since this is ld50 to be sure I will need to double the dose, and it looks like 50 000 pills is too much I would choose zopiclone or 15 437 pills, but considerring the fact they don't prescribe it for more then two weeks except in special cases it would be difficult as well.
      Antidepressants are equally unreliable! :(

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    3. Use nitrogen, a bag and a hose. That is a pain free way to pass. The nitlrogen will make you pass out, then ppass on

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    4. My brother is slowly and horribly dying from ALS. I want to help end his suffering but don't want to go to jail. Any ideas??

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    5. Diazepam comes in up to 10mg btw, at least here in the states. Alprazolam (Xanax) only comes in 2 mg and same for clonapin

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  4. noose sounds the best. is there a way to get people to not look for you? I dont want people to know i'm gone.

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  5. Thanks man,very helpful,ill just take pils though,thanks man.

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  6. I think I might lock myself in the garage a put a tube from the tailpipe into the window. Then ill just take lots of deep breaths. I have given up on this life.

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  7. so have these people died yet? damn. not healthy bro, not healthy. why the fuck am i even on this page. #forreal

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    1. I'm not sure I want to ask this question. Have I helped anyone, and if so, did I help? It's mind boggling. but it gets even more boggling if you try to imagine who would give the answers. Sometimes I just do stuff without thinking of the consequences. It keeps life interesting. I'm sorry for all the bad, and happy for all the good that came out of this. But I am not sorry for doing it.

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  8. probably going for the pills... & makes sure my room door is locked and take more than
    7 or 8 . That should do it .

    P.S Good bye to all the family i have left & see this. most liely going to check my computer history. Great Job. Well ur probably wondering why i did this. Well, its pretty simple, I HATE MY DAMN LIFE. AND i felt like NOTHING I DID WAS HELPING MY STUPID LIFE !!! I HAD NO FRIENDS & IF I DID VERY LITTLE. WHO NEEDS FRIENDS ANYWAY?!?! EVENTUALLY THEY BETRAY YOU ANYWAY. RIGHT?! NO .. I KNOW IM RIGHT. WELL THAT EXPLAINS MY BULL SHIT EXCUSE WHY I KILLED MY SELF. HOPE YOU HAVE A BETTER LIFE WITHOUT ME!! I KNOW YOU WILL ! ^-^

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    1. i hope you're not gone, you may really matter to someone.

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    3. wow very sad you know very depresed girl i cried when i saw this i fell the same way it reminds me of my self i was thinking of killing my self and still... hope I will have the courage soon to do it.

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    4. don't write your note here stupid, your family is going to blame this guy. douche! Great idea Tasha. Thanks!

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    5. to very depressed girl, I am 50 years old and I have been through hell since birth. I attempted suicide at 17 but failed because there wasn't such elaborate information as now a days. I want to thank Henry Hackits for his extreme humor on this page and information but it still is disturbing to know that in the advancement of human intelligence and technology we pursue the morbidity of finding answers for a way to end the pain we seemingly cannot endure. We humans are extremely adaptable and can endure many hardships emotionally and physically. Things always get better, love returns, life is a lesson to strengthen you through its trials. But you have to have a love for it and yourself. Without love for yourself then why fight? I want you to try and fight for people like me that care and kind generous souls that offer the extension of friendship like Justin jstell725. We care, we want to help, you can reach out and spill your deepest and darkest felt emotional burdens and shadows and know that you won't be judged but loved and understood. No one knows the face of death as I do. Some reason no matter what dangers, accidents, overdoses, even attempted suicides, I still remained because something or someone wanted me to stay. To endure, to overcome. I need you all as you may need my friendship, guidance or advice. Please reach out to me, tell me your stories and lets find another way to fight this feeling of loneliness, depressions, or misplacement of your wandering soul to rest.. I am asking for your trust in me before you decide on any other avenue or course in life. If I fail then you have nothing to lose. You may go on to fulfill your choice, commit to your decision, no one will stop you.. There are many whom will guide you to the edge and help to push you over but a few that will with love and understanding embrace you and your shadows, pains, anguishes, longing and heartbreaks, with every intention to right the balance of your life with a kind word and a compassionate heart that truly loves you for everything that you are!
      Maybe we can help each other understand thing better. Maybe you will find my stories helpful. I have had many people in my life that committed suicide that I never would have dreamed that they would ever choose such an ending because it was by far never in their characters to end that way. Everyone of us have something to offer each other. Even Mr. Hackit is helping immensely with his truthful and realistic views more so than any other site. I am posting this with the utmost respect to Mr. Hackit. I came on his site for my own selfish purpose but ended up having many things revealed that I want to offer another direction as a compliment to his well rehearsed written page in offering a safe and considerate means of escape from life. I want you all that are doubtful or wish to be given a glimpse of hope and an alternative to suicide to write me and discuss things through. Perhaps with what we learn from one another we can overcome our pains. I am just like you but older, experienced in the ways of pain and shadows that grip your heart. I am a friend and I am extending my self to you, reaching out to catch you before you fall.. Will you take a chance? I am here: zumerod@gmail.com my name is Roxy

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    6. to very depressed girl, I am 50 years old and I have been through hell since birth. I attempted suicide at 17 but failed because there wasn't such elaborate information as now a days. I want to thank Henry Hackits for his extreme humor on this page and information but it still is disturbing to know that in the advancement of human intelligence and technology we pursue the morbidity of finding answers for a way to end the pain we seemingly cannot endure. We humans are extremely adaptable and can endure many hardships emotionally and physically. Things always get better, love returns, life is a lesson to strengthen you through its trials. But you have to have a love for it and yourself. Without love for yourself then why fight? I want you to try and fight for people like me that care and kind generous souls that offer the extension of friendship like Justin jstell725. We care, we want to help, you can reach out and spill your deepest and darkest felt emotional burdens and shadows and know that you won't be judged but loved and understood. No one knows the face of death as I do. Some reason no matter what dangers, accidents, overdoses, even attempted suicides, I still remained because something or someone wanted me to stay. To endure, to overcome. I need you all as you may need my friendship, guidance or advice. Please reach out to me, tell me your stories and lets find another way to fight this feeling of loneliness, depressions, or misplacement of your wandering soul to rest.. I am asking for your trust in me before you decide on any other avenue or course in life. If I fail then you have nothing to lose. You may go on to fulfill your choice, commit to your decision, no one will stop you.. There are many whom will guide you to the edge and help to push you over but a few that will with love and understanding embrace you and your shadows, pains, anguishes, longing and heartbreaks, with every intention to right the balance of your life with a kind word and a compassionate heart that truly loves you for everything that you are!
      Maybe we can help each other understand thing better. Maybe you will find my stories helpful. I have had many people in my life that committed suicide that I never would have dreamed that they would ever choose such an ending because it was by far never in their characters to end that way. Everyone of us have something to offer each other. Even Mr. Hackit is helping immensely with his truthful and realistic views more so than any other site. I am posting this with the utmost respect to Mr. Hackit. I came on his site for my own selfish purpose but ended up having many things revealed that I want to offer another direction as a compliment to his well rehearsed written page in offering a safe and considerate means of escape from life. I want you all that are doubtful or wish to be given a glimpse of hope and an alternative to suicide to write me and discuss things through. Perhaps with what we learn from one another we can overcome our pains. I am just like you but older, experienced in the ways of pain and shadows that grip your heart. I am a friend and I am extending my self to you, reaching out to catch you before you fall.. Will you take a chance? I am here: zumerod@gmail.com my name is Roxy

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    7. to very depressed girl, I am 50 years old and I have been through hell since birth. I attempted suicide at 17 but failed because there wasn't such elaborate information as now a days. I want to thank Henry Hackits for his extreme humor on this page and information but it still is disturbing to know that in the advancement of human intelligence and technology we pursue the morbidity of finding answers for a way to end the pain we seemingly cannot endure. We humans are extremely adaptable and can endure many hardships emotionally and physically. Things always get better, love returns, life is a lesson to strengthen you through its trials. But you have to have a love for it and yourself. Without love for yourself then why fight? I want you to try and fight for people like me that care and kind generous souls that offer the extension of friendship like Justin jstell725. We care, we want to help, you can reach out and spill your deepest and darkest felt emotional burdens and shadows and know that you won't be judged but loved and understood. No one knows the face of death as I do. Some reason no matter what dangers, accidents, overdoses, even attempted suicides, I still remained because something or someone wanted me to stay. To endure, to overcome. I need you all as you may need my friendship, guidance or advice. Please reach out to me, tell me your stories and lets find another way to fight this feeling of loneliness, depressions, or misplacement of your wandering soul to rest.. I am asking for your trust in me before you decide on any other avenue or course in life. If I fail then you have nothing to lose. You may go on to fulfill your choice, commit to your decision, no one will stop you.. There are many whom will guide you to the edge and help to push you over but a few that will with love and understanding embrace you and your shadows, pains, anguishes, longing and heartbreaks, with every intention to right the balance of your life with a kind word and a compassionate heart that truly loves you for everything that you are!
      Maybe we can help each other understand thing better. Maybe you will find my stories helpful. I have had many people in my life that committed suicide that I never would have dreamed that they would ever choose such an ending because it was by far never in their characters to end that way. Everyone of us have something to offer each other. Even Mr. Hackit is helping immensely with his truthful and realistic views more so than any other site. I am posting this with the utmost respect to Mr. Hackit. I came on his site for my own selfish purpose but ended up having many things revealed that I want to offer another direction as a compliment to his well rehearsed written page in offering a safe and considerate means of escape from life. I want you all that are doubtful or wish to be given a glimpse of hope and an alternative to suicide to write me and discuss things through. Perhaps with what we learn from one another we can overcome our pains. I am just like you but older, experienced in the ways of pain and shadows that grip your heart. I am a friend and I am extending my self to you, reaching out to catch you before you fall.. Will you take a chance? I am here: "zumerod@gmail.com" Roxy

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    8. to very depressed girl, I am 50 years old and I have been through hell since birth. I attempted suicide at 17 but failed because there wasn't such elaborate information as now a days. I want to thank Henry Hackits for his extreme humor on this page and information but it still is disturbing to know that in the advancement of human intelligence and technology we pursue the morbidity of finding answers for a way to end the pain we seemingly cannot endure. We humans are extremely adaptable and can endure many hardships emotionally and physically. Things always get better, love returns, life is a lesson to strengthen you through its trials. But you have to have a love for it and yourself. Without love for yourself then why fight? I want you to try and fight for people like me that care and kind generous souls that offer the extension of friendship like Justin jstell725. We care, we want to help, you can reach out and spill your deepest and darkest felt emotional burdens and shadows and know that you won't be judged but loved and understood. No one knows the face of death as I do. Some reason no matter what dangers, accidents, overdoses, even attempted suicides, I still remained because something or someone wanted me to stay. To endure, to overcome. I need you all as you may need my friendship, guidance or advice. Please reach out to me, tell me your stories and lets find another way to fight this feeling of loneliness, depressions, or misplacement of your wandering soul to rest.. I am asking for your trust in me before you decide on any other avenue or course in life. If I fail then you have nothing to lose. You may go on to fulfill your choice, commit to your decision, no one will stop you.. There are many whom will guide you to the edge and help to push you over but a few that will with love and understanding embrace you and your shadows, pains, anguishes, longing and heartbreaks, with every intention to right the balance of your life with a kind word and a compassionate heart that truly loves you for everything that you are!
      Maybe we can help each other understand thing better. Maybe you will find my stories helpful. I have had many people in my life that committed suicide that I never would have dreamed that they would ever choose such an ending because it was by far never in their characters to end that way. Everyone of us have something to offer each other. Even Mr. Hackit is helping immensely with his truthful and realistic views more so than any other site. I am posting this with the utmost respect to Mr. Hackit. I came on his site for my own selfish purpose but ended up having many things revealed that I want to offer another direction as a compliment to his well rehearsed written page in offering a safe and considerate means of escape from life. I want you all that are doubtful or wish to be given a glimpse of hope and an alternative to suicide to write me and discuss things through. Perhaps with what we learn from one another we can overcome our pains. I am just like you but older, experienced in the ways of pain and shadows that grip your heart. I am a friend and I am extending my self to you, reaching out to catch you before you fall.. Will you take a chance? I am here: zumerod@gmail.com

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    9. to very depressed girl, I am 50 years old and I have been through hell since birth. I attempted suicide at 17 but failed because there wasn't such elaborate information as now a days. I want to thank Henry Hackits for his extreme humor on this page and information but it still is disturbing to know that in the advancement of human intelligence and technology we pursue the morbidity of finding answers for a way to end the pain we seemingly cannot endure. We humans are extremely adaptable and can endure many hardships emotionally and physically. Things always get better, love returns, life is a lesson to strengthen you through its trials. But you have to have a love for it and yourself. Without love for yourself then why fight? I want you to try and fight for people like me that care and kind generous souls that offer the extension of friendship like Justin jstell725. We care, we want to help, you can reach out and spill your deepest and darkest felt emotional burdens and shadows and know that you won't be judged but loved and understood. No one knows the face of death as I do. Some reason no matter what dangers, accidents, overdoses, even attempted suicides, I still remained because something or someone wanted me to stay. To endure, to overcome. I need you all as you may need my friendship, guidance or advice. Please reach out to me, tell me your stories and lets find another way to fight this feeling of loneliness, depressions, or misplacement of your wandering soul to rest.. I am asking for your trust in me before you decide on any other avenue or course in life. If I fail then you have nothing to lose. You may go on to fulfill your choice, commit to your decision, no one will stop you.. There are many whom will guide you to the edge and help to push you over but a few that will with love and understanding embrace you and your shadows, pains, anguishes, longing and heartbreaks, with every intention to right the balance of your life with a kind word and a compassionate heart that truly loves you for everything that you are!
      Maybe we can help each other understand thing better. Maybe you will find my stories helpful. I have had many people in my life that committed suicide that I never would have dreamed that they would ever choose such an ending because it was by far never in their characters to end that way. Everyone of us have something to offer each other. Even Mr. Hackit is helping immensely with his truthful and realistic views more so than any other site. I am posting this with the utmost respect to Mr. Hackit. I came on his site for my own selfish purpose but ended up having many things revealed that I want to offer another direction as a compliment to his well rehearsed written page in offering a safe and considerate means of escape from life. I want you all that are doubtful or wish to be given a glimpse of hope and an alternative to suicide to write me and discuss things through. Perhaps with what we learn from one another we can overcome our pains. I am just like you but older, experienced in the ways of pain and shadows that grip your heart. I am a friend and I am extending my self to you, reaching out to catch you before you fall.. Will you take a chance? I am here: zumerod@gmail.com

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    10. i feel your pain. im not sure y you feel the way you do. but i have suffered with depression all my life. my boyz are wha kept me goiiing and now i do not feel they need me and why stick around they will be better off...

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    11. So... Are you dead yet?... If not, maybe you should consider being miserable with someone. It could be me or someone else... Misery loves company they say... I can remember few days when I didn't want to be dead, ever since I was a kid. I'm 48 now and my life seems like such a fucking waste... So you see, your not alone and the bottom line is, we are all going to die... Be patient and who knows, maybe before you pass you'll have a few good days

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    12. No-one realises how many friends and family they have that do really care until they turn up at your funeral. Too bad you don't realise this until it is too late...

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    13. ThAT'S a lie.. no one reALLY Cares ABOUT anyone but themselves.

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    14. Best comment I've seen on this blog. I am curious why your on this site? I am because I'm really depressed. I have so many medical problems you wouldn't believe and think about doing myself in alot. I am suffering both physically and mentally. Long story but at any rate...jcochrane42@gmail.com.

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    15. Best comment I've seen yet. I am curious why your on this site? I am very depressed and have so many medical problems you wouldn't believe. I think about doing myself in All the time. At any rate..
      jcochrane42@gmail.com

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  9. I'm going with co. I can't go on without her. She was everything to me.

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    1. i understand completely & i hope peace finds you too..

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    2. to very depressed girl, I am 50 years old and I have been through hell since birth. I attempted suicide at 17 but failed because there wasn't such elaborate information as now a days. I want to thank Henry Hackits for his extreme humor on this page and information but it still is disturbing to know that in the advancement of human intelligence and technology we pursue the morbidity of finding answers for a way to end the pain we seemingly cannot endure. We humans are extremely adaptable and can endure many hardships emotionally and physically. Things always get better, love returns, life is a lesson to strengthen you through its trials. But you have to have a love for it and yourself. Without love for yourself then why fight? I want you to try and fight for people like me that care and kind generous souls that offer the extension of friendship like Justin jstell725. We care, we want to help, you can reach out and spill your deepest and darkest felt emotional burdens and shadows and know that you won't be judged but loved and understood. No one knows the face of death as I do. Some reason no matter what dangers, accidents, overdoses, even attempted suicides, I still remained because something or someone wanted me to stay. To endure, to overcome. I need you all as you may need my friendship, guidance or advice. Please reach out to me, tell me your stories and lets find another way to fight this feeling of loneliness, depressions, or misplacement of your wandering soul to rest.. I am asking for your trust in me before you decide on any other avenue or course in life. If I fail then you have nothing to lose. You may go on to fulfill your choice, commit to your decision, no one will stop you.. There are many whom will guide you to the edge and help to push you over but a few that will with love and understanding embrace you and your shadows, pains, anguishes, longing and heartbreaks, with every intention to right the balance of your life with a kind word and a compassionate heart that truly loves you for everything that you are!
      Maybe we can help each other understand thing better. Maybe you will find my stories helpful. I have had many people in my life that committed suicide that I never would have dreamed that they would ever choose such an ending because it was by far never in their characters to end that way. Everyone of us have something to offer each other. Even Mr. Hackit is helping immensely with his truthful and realistic views more so than any other site. I am posting this with the utmost respect to Mr. Hackit. I came on his site for my own selfish purpose but ended up having many things revealed that I want to offer another direction as a compliment to his well rehearsed written page in offering a safe and considerate means of escape from life. I want you all that are doubtful or wish to be given a glimpse of hope and an alternative to suicide to write me and discuss things through. Perhaps with what we learn from one another we can overcome our pains. I am just like you but older, experienced in the ways of pain and shadows that grip your heart. I am a friend and I am extending my self to you, reaching out to catch you before you fall.. Will you take a chance? I am here: zumerod@gmail.com

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    3. Yes I am here with you. Right behind you brother

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    4. Please tell me an easy way to die :( i cant live without him,after all this time he says im not the one,i loved him so much..i cant make it without him! :(

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  10. i think i'll go look for some sleeping pills, its either that or a rope on the door... i wish poison was easier to get a hold of :(

    P.S. Goodbye everyone i knew, i know you'll all forget about me eventually. i was always useless and unimportant anyways. And I cant go another day knowing that i'll never see him again, the one person i mattered to.

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    1. try sleeping pills but make sure that no one finds you.. bcaz recently i tried i have taken 90 pills at a time with corex cough syrup i thought that the tablets will start working in 6 hours to my bad luck i was taken to the hospital after 7 hours and the stupid thing is i am alive... i know that parents and the near one wil feel bad but still trying to commit suicide in quick way...
      Please if u do know about how to purchase pills through online ... just mail me the website to personalmails84@gmail.com...
      I will be very thankful to u if u would let me know the way to die quickly ....i know the pain who suffers like me

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    2. You could always go to a shooting range and use the guns there since the poeple don't charge until ur done shooting :3

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    3. tell him to jump in front of a train thats the best way to die with no pain

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    4. that would be a good idea, But don't get caught by other people THEY WILL STOP YOU

      I feel the same way.

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    5. Please tell me a way to die :( i cant live without him ..i mean nothing to him after all the love ive given to him its difficult for me to make it without him! :(

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  11. I'm gonna go with butane... id like a good trip before i die...

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  12. i don't know maybe I will just bleed out they can't save me anyway I have a bad heart or I will do an over dose thank you... =^.^=

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    1. not that i want to interfere in any way with your choices, thinking about a good way myself, but just if u're interestied, standard heart disease can be easily done with through a vegan high carb low fat(10 percent) whole foods diet.
      look up caldwell eselstyn's work, if u'd like to.
      and genetic weakness can be reversed through a raw vegan high fruit diet at best with specific herbs, look up robert morse if u'd like to.
      so again i don't care what u do, as long as u don't interfere with the freedom of others.
      so good luck for any choice u make and doesn't it suck, that it's so hard to leave this world ;(

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  13. I'm thinking Sedative Overdose or CO...

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  14. Carbon monoxide is a tricky one. I knew a chap who tried to do that and failed as the vehicle's engine burnt 'Unleaded' fuel. Need an engine that burns 'Lead' based fuel, or if one is mechanically minded removing the cata-convert would work.

    Hanging is the plan that i've been looking into. Been used for centuries as the process is clean, quick and if done far enough away, nobody will find the remains for a long time.

    To the publisher of this article. What a brilliant read and thank you for having the balls to post it! Indeed most of the searches i've found online return almost zero results regarding this issue.

    It seems the internet isn't as uncensored as we all thought it would be, eh? lol :)

    PS - Got another quick one you might like. Been toying with this idea as well.

    Buy a long length 15mm metal chain ('bout 100 meters) then drive out to a secluded spot nobody goes too. Somewhere near a big steep cliff with trees on top of it. Ensure you have enough room to get the car up to a decent speed to drive over the ledge.

    Reverse the car up to a large strong tree. Secure with a shackle to one end of the chain around the tree. Smash the back window out of the car, then feed the other end through the window. Jump back into the drivers seat and loop the chain around your neck firmly. Shackle that securely.

    Now all you have to do is drive as fast as you can toward the cliff. I'm picturing one of two things to happen. One - Head removal from body instantly as the chain tightens and gravity takes effect. Two - Gravity takes effect and forces you violently through the back of the vehicle destroying the body instantly.

    Either way it would be a spectacular way to go, and once arseholes find the wreck they would be thinking "What the, wha?"

    Only disadvantage would be if the car burst into flames upon impact, starting a bushfire resulting in others livelihoods being destroyed. And it would piss off the environmentalists. Anyway.

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    1. oh yeah, I like. I really like the "what the, wa?" effect. It never occurred to me that some people like maximum shock or just a big F-you to the people they leave behind. Perhaps this is the stuff for an entirely new blog post.

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  15. Okay, I thought I knew how to kill myself but now I've got way more questions than before I read this.

    That catalytic converter stuff does sound tricky, but i've heard charcoal grill indoors does it too, though, right? In apartment maybe not a good idea. Would charcoal grill in car work or would the smoke force you out?? Or maybe the catalytic converter would only remove a portion of the CO so it just takes longer?

    You're right about the butane might not be best because one or two hits and you wake up on floor. Does butane come in propane tank size so you can just get in the car with a tank and turn on the nozzle? Also, don't people abort the butane plan because of the euphoria?

    Also, in An Unquiet Mind, Dr. Kay Jamison says that the body will recognize when its being poisoned and throw up any pills in your stomach (She tried). It worries me that a medical doctor couldn't succeed with the pills route.

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    1. This was alot of help to me thank.you. life is nothing but bullshit to me. Noyhingvever grts better? I am on my best friend/ex boyfriends profile a nd he is sleeing right nextto me. I love him so much and i noe he loves.me..i kno i will.always be in.his heart and i will.be watching.over. the love of my life <3 i love you dylan, with all my heart , im sorry.

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  16. Thank you everyone fr sharng this valuable information.I am thinkng abt dis fr 1 week nd i couldnt find a bettr way.I am still alive nly bcoz i am so confusd abt hw to die...my frns scolded me dat eatng 30to 40 of any kind of tablets will lead to death.But,i hate tablets so strong dat i can't take more than five,i will vomit.I dnt want to die ugly r painfully...I am still thinkng...

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  17. Thinking bout a rope or razor blade to the throat. But how many ativans would it take to do me in?

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    1. DONT cut your throat. Movies and games make it seem painless, but trust me, bleeding feels HORRIBLE. I bled for hours once, sadly sruvived.

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  19. Dose any one wanna partner with me and die together

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  20. does anyone know a good way to just end up in the hospital ? im not ready for the real thing yet. I already did sleeping pill. I'm trying to keep it fresh any Suggestion?

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    1. I've been in hospital a few times myself. Assuming you want to be in a mental health section rather than a general hospital section you could say lots of things or do lots of things which alarm people such as self harm or talk of self harm. Sure fire way to get a stay as an involuntary patient. After that you could choose to stay on as a voluntary patient or you could go the hospital of your choosing and request to be admitted as a voluntary patient. Just be aware of your rights if you're involuntary and what they class you as. i.e here in NSW, Australia you can be listed as a mentally ill or mentally disordered patient and depending on which determines how much authority/rights you have.

      P.S You probably won't have leave for a while so take care of anything important beforehand.

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  21. From what I've heard, apparently pills and/or alcohol doesn't go down well. Apparently like 70% of people end up either processing it all or being found and taken to hospital. Not sure if it's such a great idea.....

    Personally I've been thinking of cutting my wrists and just letting myself bleed out. I don't so much care about it being painless as long as it's effective. Anyone got suggestions?

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    1. I've got one suggestion. I wouldn't go with slicing the wrists, because there is a high risk of it failing, even if you're cutting the wright way, (down the length of the artery, NOT across). Cutting is difficult, the human skin is tougher then you might think, and to hit the wright artery you'll need a good amount of knowlidge about anatomy, or a lot of luck.

      Note: bleeding to death takes long, and there's a high risk of it failing. The chance of surviving and ending up being handicapped because you've hit one or more nerves is bigger then ending up dead because you've cut yourself open.

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    2. If you're going for the cutting, cut the vains between your legs and then your wrists. Also you'll need to use different razors or maybe a knife because the blood will gst slippery and hard to hold onto.
      It'll mess with your body, depending how long it takes you to be found, but do it in a bath because warm/hot water makes the blood flow better.

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  22. Just stumbled across this and thought people might find it helpful: http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/statistics-most-lethal-methods

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  23. It takes some big ones to do yourself in no matter what you chose because your choosing to end and leave your own "shitty existence" in exchange for an unknown quantity....nobody knows what happens when we die so as bad or as fucked up shit gets hear I just imagine that whatever waits could be much much worse. I mean for all I know the worst bastard on this god forsaken rock as it better then anyone on the other side, shit just think of all the people that are already dead....they could all be there waiting for fresh meat. So you think it's bad hear.... well it is sorry about your luck but did you ever stop to think that maybe you deserve it, I can't remember anything before I was born so there is a possibility that I could have done something to come here, just a thought...Point being is that I know the shit world but there's some good hear too and that helps, but at least I know it...and I'm not so sure I'd be willing to just give all that up for an uncertain outcome...So yeah you might ending your pain here in exchange for a worser pain in a place you've never even been to before. Personally I'd rather be able to see where the punches are coming from but hey that's just my 2 cents

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    1. I think we have a pretty good idea what happens when you die. We know that if the brain is damaged, the mind (read: soul) is also damaged. Hit the right part of the brain with a needle or a drug or a stroke and you go blind, or become paralyzed, or lose a memory, your personality changes, you have vivid hallucinations, or really weird effects like being unable to recognize faces or becoming dyslexic, your hands start doing stuff on their own without your control (look it up it's actually pretty cool). So what happens when your brain is destroyed? You are gone. Your whole world is gone. No vision, no sound, no feeling, no sense of time passing, no memories, no thoughts, no names, no awareness, nothing. You, the world and everything in it is gone.

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    2. This is what I have been thinking as well.

      I fucking hate my life, but I'm also scared of what's out there. What's waiting for me. I want my consciousness to be completely destroyed, but we can't really say 100% that it will happen...

      But then gain, on the other hand, I might be able to exist in some kind of place where everything I ever wanted comes true. But at the moment, hate the way things have gone so much, that I don't even know if I want that. I just really want to die, for real

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  24. if you fail and end up in hospital do they help you ? no the system does not want to help anyone so just do it right first time do you want to be a member of such a sick society no and I think that summs everything up , I will probably go soon I have pressed all the buttons society told me too and am now 50 and it got me no where its the people that suck especialy here in germany I saught love with a career girl it could have worked but external factors pulled eveything appart she can not show her true feelings the uncertainty hurts she interacts with germans who give nothing from their personal lives I can nit live in a vacuum we were just on holiday and one day at work she is no longer the wonderfull person I love so deeply " One fucking day at work "

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  25. To think I was going to take 40 paracetamols tonight... well now i've got some more creative less painful easier deaths to chose from! Can finally be happy! FUCK YOU LIFE

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    1. nah c'm on you cant be so mean :(
      at least, meet me one time in reallife...

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  26. I'm going to use the one of dangerous places and jump from a flight. I think is the best one, impossible to fail.

    I'm sick of living in Manchester, I came to England running away of the recession in Spain two years ago and I got stuck here, I just want to go back but I can't earn enough to do it.

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  27. thankyou. I've tried almost everything.. something keeps me alive, something always goes wrong. maybe ill try the bag and tape. i don't know.. I'm tired of this, of the crying, of staying in my room, communicating with nobody. I've been such a waste of space these past months..

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    1. ^ sounds like me... I cant even legally go outside.

      Too scared to try again and end up in a 3 day coma like last time.

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  28. My daughter died in February, only 6 hours after her birth, I've lost the woman I love the most and I'm stuck in AIT, not able to do anything but hold back the tears from my battle buddy's... I've slit my wrists four times, I've stabbed myself in the soft spot above the hi where the kidney or liver should be... I can't go on... I don't even know why I'm writing this except, maybe to persuade the people on here, who haven't gone through my hell, to take a deep breath and realize, if you still have people I your life, even if you lose one, then those people are worth living for. Death and grief doesn't happen to you, it happens to them...

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  29. My life literally sucks worse then anyone's.

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    1. OK I like this idea. We could all take turns trying to outsuck each other. My life sucks worst because (fill in the blank).. That could get us all laughing and maybe turn things around for a minute.

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  30. just shoot yourself with a 50 cal in the head, you wont feel shit

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  31. Why live in misery. Everybody says life will get better. Somebody out their really cares for you. Well if that person felt my pain than they would do the same. I hope nobody goes thru what im going. No I dnt want your help at all. Just waiting for a place where I feel free. I wake up and its all the same. Ive never made a differnce in anbodys life. Im nothing but a screw up litteraly. I just want to end it soooooo bad.

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    1. Hey Adams u know what u are having "Life" for what thousands of people strive. u r a lucky one. i hope i can sort it out for u. for god sake guys never try these evil tips

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  32. I'm sick and tired of all the wasted time and love.. I'm tired of feeling this way.. I want to die... will somebody kill me?

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    1. I will, if your rich and if you leave all your money to me... PS... Love is never wasted.

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    2. You honestly didn't saw the irony in all this :(

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    3. What an egoistic way to die!

      Killing itself is a problem in it's own, even suicide is. Suicide is a craven way to die! You'll miss something after dying that way (in other words: you won't feel good).

      But after all, to take effort to ASK other people, if they could take that burden away is just pity.

      But in any other case, if you stand by, you won't regret it.

      Have a look at Teal Scott for example (and through which hell you went threw). You know what she said? It's was a kind of lesson she had to learn, on this earth. Only through going that way, she ascend. Otherwise, by dying, she has to go through all this, time sooner or later, anyways.

      So I'm sorry, no "easy way" this time. It'll just take longer after all.



      ...But as I said, you won't regret it. And anyways, you'll not only feel better afterwards, no, because of that you'll feel GREAT. Guys like you always be the most happy people on earth. You know why? Because, everything has it's dark but also bright sides. Only if you know what is "bad" you'll appreciate the good things how they are (afterwards). That's why rich people almost every time are unhappy.

      So, keep up all Guys!

      I hope other people, who thought that way of killing themselves, will read this. I believe in you!

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  33. So what is the quickest painless easiest way to die?
    Since I was 12 people say ohhh it will get better I'm almost 21 its not fucking getting better. My dad killed himself. Probably going to follow in his footsteps since my bitch mom doesn't give a fuck. Life is stressful and fuckjng ridiculous. Most of the time I'm actually a fun bubbly person. But on the inside I'm a disaster. Id prefer dieng over the very rare happiness moments because they are just moments and I'm done living moment to moment. So on fucking English. Quick painless and easy to get to way ???

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  34. I tried to kill myself once. I took a bunch of pills from like 3 different bottles. I wrote a note and hid in my closet. My roommate came home, found me. He came in my room, saw the note, and found me in the closet. He took me in the bathroom and tried to force his fingers down my throat. It didn't work so he forced me into the car and child safety locked me inside. Carried me in the hospital, me fighting the whole way. I only weighed about 115 but it took 3 people to hold me down and force that tube down my throat. I could barely breathe and most of the pills hadn't even fully dissolved, so I was barely even high. I had to stay in the ER a while. I had nightmares about that tube in my throat for years. Sometimes I wish I had never done it, and sometimes I wish I had not been found. This is one of those times I wish I had died.

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  35. i have fought with depression since I was 13 years old. I am now 40. I work a dead-end job, have very few friends mostly because of the job, am at least 100lbs overweight and have really lost any semblance of the will to live on. But, like an idiot, i keep getting up day after day. My last attempt involved parking my small car across the train tracks near where I live. I pulled the keys out of the ignition and waited. In that time, i was reflecting on my life and all the missed or bungled opportunities I wasted. I reflected on the fact that if I disappeared, i'd be forgotten just like that. And yet, just as the southbound freighter rounded the corner, i started the car and moved off the tracks. The next day, i called the health services where I work. They took me out of work for a month and I contacted a public mental healthy agency. Despite all this, I still think about ending my life almost every minute of the day. What is so wrong with us all that death is a welcome alternative to living our lives? It's 3am and I sitting in front of my computer because I can't sleep googling sure-fire methods to end my life reading comments from people just as disturbed as I am. It's good to know that i am not alone, but bad that there are so many so ready to take their own lives.

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  36. I screwed up big time. I lost the man I love, my soul mate, and I will never get him back. My life has been nothing but hell since my father died when I was 13. I'm now about to be 23... I just can't fight any longer. I'm ready to go home. I want something fast and painless and not messy, so my loved ones won't have anything to clean up after. I'm thinking going to a shooting range and shooting myself (which is the most messy I would consider) or sitting in the garage with the car on. Bag and duct tape seems legit but you have to find a reliable bag with no holes... Maybe I should take a bunch of pills first so I'm too relaxed for my body even to fight for itself. I have a thing against blood so I would never be able to cut myself and bleed out, but I have thought about hanging yet I could never find a good place to do that. If I could turn back time I would never be here. I would never even dream of this, but alas fate is a cruel mistress... I want everyone I know that I do love them but that I am weak and held all my demons inside, but I could not hold back the darkness anymore and its time for me to go. I will write a proper good bye after I get all the things I need together, but if any of you find this I just want you to know I tried.

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  37. Guys this is crazy im mean if ur still hear and can still see this If this makes feel anybetter u guys all matter to me

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  38. Is anyone in the SW Florida area? Pact? 7064243468 Rich

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  39. Pills don´t do it. I tried 4 or 5 times by now. I eve tried powerful anaesthesia, the kind that is use for surgery. It only gave me a hangover.
    I feel like I'm in a hole and I'm screaming and nobody hear me. They pass it by, they even look at me, but nobody even talks to me. That's why I want to die. Because nobody cares about me. People say "somebody would suffer if you die" but, why anybody paid me any attention while I was alive? Why they would suffer? That's bullshit. That's hypocrisy. I'm suffering! And nobody cares!!!! That's no life! I really want to die. I wish I was living in the US. Here its difficult to find a gun. That's the easiest way. A bullet to the head or the heart. When I get the money and the guts to go to a dangerous place where they sell it, I'll be done. The one thing I'm gonna regret it's miss the face of my mom and brothers. They will know that's my blood on their hands and I hope they live long. Hell is right here.

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  40. shit year but when i go to kill myself i always think about the things in this world i haven't seen yet. i want to see a fucking alien. is that too much to ask?

    i was curious about what i would do if i did decide i'd had enough of my piece of shit life and this was very entertaining. cheers man.

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  41. thanks I like the sleep medication that way I wont feel anything and i would be relaxed

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  42. This blog is pathetic. Another one of those stupid sites that intend to persuade people not to kill themselves, but using some sort of inverse psychology and stupid "humor." Like para-suicides can't find enough sites that talk about the flaws of common suicide methods anyways.

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  43. I think im gonna try hang myself, since it is fairly quick and painless. Thank you so much for this, I owe you one.

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  45. Hey can someone break down the electrocution for me? What wires am I putting on my chest? How do I rig the breaker?

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  46. Freezing to death with alcohol sounds like a fun way to go... plus you can make it look like an accident. No one is the wiser.

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  47. I have come to terms that my dreams will never come true, doing what I love makes me feel anxious and I hate feeling that way. The only thing Im good at is at making my family miserable, its for the best if Im gone, however I already have many attempts and now they keep me on watch, so I have no tools to do it...

    I suppose the only thing I can do is live a miserable life until they trust me again and get the things I need, however that day may never come...

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  48. I'm tired of looking around and seeing what others have that I do not. I'm not talking about material things; I have all that. I'm talking about friends - true friends not just people who use you for their own purposes. I'm 45 and have a good job but I'm tired of going through the motions. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of watching everything fall into place for the pretty people no matter how shallow, how stupid or how selfish they are while regular people get fucked day in and day out. If my life were a video game I'd have press reset and started anew a long time ago. Instead I'm stuck with the same pain, day in and day out, and all I do is get older.

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  49. I would like to extend a invitation to anyone that wants to do it-end it all- together so there is no chance of us getting revived by passer by I live in texas 210 area

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  50. I'm getting so sick and tired of all the pain. I can't take it anymore. It's to much for a 12 year old girl like me. I'm going to steal the sleeping pills in our med cabinet.

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  51. Thank you for this post! I adore black humour especially on a subject as deadly serious as this topic is. I am decided, I have chosen as my route and exit from the highway of Hell....hypothermia! Listen folks don't try these other methods this one is by far the best. I have been reviewing my options for some time now and this is the easiest and least frightening option. This assumes of course, that you can find some winter, I have money so I can get some anytime I need to. Leaving those pesky particulars aside do the following 1. Check the weather and wait for a good cold snap 2. Ingest only enough alcohol to be woosie 3. Take a handful of Xanax, mind not too much you don't want to puke and aspirate, I'd say 6 1mg tabs is plenty. For Heavens sake make sure you have pre-selected the site, a good plan is imperative for the seriously suicidal, leave nothing to chance if failure is not an option. Finally, in all seriousness commenters, I FEEL YOUR PAIN! BEST WISHES AND LOVE TO YOU ALL! BE AT PEACE.

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  52. My favorite two options are:

    -Hide behind the bushes until a fast train is close enough not to be able to stop and then lay my neck on the track, it will be very quick and wont feel any pain.
    Only problem with that is someone has to be bothered cleaning, cremating etc.

    -Go to Iceland, buy a gun and jump into a volcano, and shoot myself on the way down.
    No one will have to do anything for me then, most likely no one will even know what happened (Cool).
    Only problem is how to get a gun there.

    It wont take me long anyway, I'm 36 and I'm tired of feeling depressed since I was 10.

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  53. I feel like I just saw so many people die.... who am I kidding... I know that no matter what I say no one will change their mind. None of this is really the way to do it.... then again, how I think is different because of what I know.

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  54. The love of my life and my best friend of 13 years has just got engaged to another. I've never been worth it to anyone. Worthless is about the only term i can muster to sum myself. The only person who truly knows me.. the only person I have ever felt completely in love with without fail.
    My life.. live alone, several hours away from my family, who never visit nor call. I work 2 jobs, one I hate. I have NO friends.
    My history.. my first boyfriend shot himself. Second, got someone knocked up. Third, beat me, forced me to do things.... you name it... Last.. decided i wasnt worth the effort to work for a life..
    and during all this time he had been there for me.. fell for eachother but felt it was impossible to be together due to distance at the time.. tried to move on but soon realized he was my life and there was no life for me without him. even typing this frustrates me... unable to really express or explain.

    i feel responsible for everything... anything i did or didn't do.. my niece's mental disorders... if i had some affect.. my nephew cutting himself.. if he's seen my scars and followed suit..

    i want them to go on without any negative from me... i feel all i am is negative anymore.. negative..

    i got extra life insurance.. made out a legal will.. tied all loose ends

    i havent eaten since thursday, barely drank. my muscles are constricting... legs cramping.. can barely breathe.. and my heart beat is irregular.. feel it palpitating.. i havent slept until last night when unconsciousness took me

    it all means nothing

    and today is his birthday. a day to celebrate. i love you with my entirety

    happy birthday, my heart..

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  55. My head hurts from the very thought of failing, because I have done so before. I'm tired of people saying people only turn to this for attention. BULL CRAP. I am done. I've waited 8 years and things haven't gotten better at my stupid age of 18. I hate this life and don't want it anymore. I wish I could just drop dead.

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  56. I'm 43 my marriage had broken down ,I've lost my kids lost my job lost my home , want to loose my life . The only thought I have is what my kids will feel.
    But I just don't want to go on. Help

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  57. My son hanged himself five weeks ago. I think the next funeral will be my own. I can't live knowing my son was in so much pain. I failed him. The car will be the place for me.

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  58. My son hanged himself five weeks ago. The next funeral will be my own. I can't live with the pain of knowing he was in so much pain he wanted to die. I failed him.

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    1. I too have failed my children n the pain is more than unbearable. My boys will be better off n I leave behind beautiful memories n traditions I hope they cherish. I am looking forward to taking my life n will have peace. Pam I understand your pain completely n I hope that if you do end your life of pain, we meet in a peaceful place. I have my plan of relief all set, I just am tying up a few loose ends prior to my much looked forward to journey

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  59. I think suicide by gas is best if you're especially angry at the world, because there's a decent chance you might take someone else down with you (say for example, the person who caused the depression)

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  60. I have my perfect way n like I've read, I guess nothing is fool proof. I am happy to have found this site. It has helped me to eliminate the possibility of failure in my method. I am actually looking forward to the eternal peace n death does not scare me. Sure life can be beautiful, there is no doubt but when suffering silently for what seems to be eternity trumps the beautiful times n no relief in sight, I will use my beautiful thoughts n memories for comfort n love during my procress of leaving this horrid place of torture.

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  61. Everyones here for a reason .you just have to find it .I've felt the same and still have my set backs .your all here for a purposes .its easier said than done but be happy .much love

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  62. Insulin and sleeping pills for a nice long awaited dirt nap

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  63. this is a shit world and a shit life, for all of those who say that life is a gift, i'm sure you have love and all the things that makes life good, so you never would even think of doing something like killing yourself. But theres other people that never know love or anything else that is good, basically there has to be miserable people so there can be happy people. you should be able to end it when you decided to and there should be understanding. but nobody cares, they only judge you and dismisses you, but they wont even lift a finger to make your life a bit less miserable. so why the fuck can't i kill myself ?. this should be out there, open, and easy access to everyone to know that there's a way of ending it, and stop the pain that this world generously offers to those in disadvantage. I am not full of hate or anger, i just can't do it anymore. i wish there was a way of giving my organs so i can help people that figured out life better than me, they deserve it. i don't know if anyone will ever read this or if anyone cares. i guess i doesn't matter, not anymore.

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  64. Thanks u for this. I've searched and found nothing I don't know the easiest route just hope I'm successful I'm tired of living I just want to take my last breath... all these people who were never there for me.. thanks for giving me this courage n for the one who betrayed me and broke my heart I hate that I trusted u.. just know I really loved u.. :..(

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  66. Does anyone want to meet up and do this together?

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  67. I have the perfect place. My Mom and Dad's empty house. We don't close on it for awhile so nobody will find me until it is too late. The mail is being forwarded so the postal worker won't see anything odd.
    Now I just have to figure out the right way. I am leaning toward shooting myself in the heard. The garage is concrete and there is a drain for easy cleanup just hose the place down.
    Tomorrow I call in sick and go buy bullets for the gun.

    I am looking forward to the quiet, peace - no anger.

    There is a bit of calm now that I have the how and where. I just need to decide on when.

    No love
    Alone
    No friends
    No family

    I won't be missed and Phil will get more money.

    Why is there a heaviness over me?

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  68. Six weeks ago on Sunday I found my other half in our garden shed after he had shot himself in the head... he didn't know how to use a computer so wouldn't have looked any method up; he showed NO outward signs of depression (which is probably why he had a gun license).
    I'm pretty certain guys that if you really do want to get out you'll know the way - I guess shooting yourself in the head isn't a cry for help.
    I've come on this page to look for a way to end my life and that of our 6 year old and four year old sons in a peaceful way and thought that the car would be the answer...
    I don't know if the car has a catalytic convertor as the car was 'steve's job'... I struggle with what I saw when I found Steve in the shed, I struggle that I had to sit down with our children to explain exactly what had happened to their Dad, I struggle that my four year old's school teachers now do not know how to deal with him as they're unsure whether his behaviour is down to grief or just his character, I struggle that Steve's sister suspects that I may be in some way to blame, I struggle daily as I do not know where we will live as it seems that no life insurances will be paid, I struggle to believe that I saw Steve had done that to himself, I struggle to believe that any one of you that does take the time to read this will continue on your path to self destruction.
    I struggle with many, many more thoughts and real-life issues that are now part of my life because Steve couldn't talk about how he felt, I don't want to be here, I wish Steve had shot us all and then killed himself.
    I have never felt so trapped - I can't kill just myself because there is nobody here to look after or who deserves to look after my beautiful boys and my only other option is to kill my children and myself - can I do that??
    I don't know, only time will tell.

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    1. Had someone done anything about this lady?!? Killing yourself is one thing, she is talking about her kids!!!

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    2. Had someone done anything about this lady?!? Killing yourself is one thing, she is talking about her kids!!!

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  69. Fuck I was planning on jumping in front of the light rail train... but now I feel too guilty, like I'd ruin all the witnesses lives and waste everyone's time... I mean, I was already aware that I would affect others, but now I feel even more guilty.

    My other option was to jump from a high building, or from a bridge... but I really don't want to hurt others who may come across my body. And I don't want to do something at home where my mom would find me because I know that would completely destroy her.

    The idea I've been thinking of lately was to just leave my cellphone, id, etc at home, then just walk into the city alone. I want to leave a note or a sign of my remorse but at the same time I don't want to hurt my mom... but it would probably be better to know that I hadn't been kidnapped, just gone off to kill myself.
    Anyway, after walking around the city I'd probably end up jumping off a bridge :/ No one would come across my splattered remains on the sidewalk, so that's a plus. Cops might be out looking for me, I could probably leave a note saying that I'd jumped into the river to save them time. I don't know.

    If I had a car I'd try carbon monoxide poisoning. My only other idea is hanging myself, but again, I wouldn't want to do it at home, because I don't want anyone to come in and find me hanging from the ceiling.

    Well, thanks for your blog post anyway. It helped me to reconsider affecting others with my suicide, at any rate.

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  70. to very depressed girl, I am 50 years old and I have been through hell since birth. I attempted suicide at 17 but failed because there wasn't such elaborate information as now a days. I want to thank Henry Hackits for his extreme humor on this page and information but it still is disturbing to know that in the advancement of human intelligence and technology we pursue the morbidity of finding answers for a way to end the pain we seemingly cannot endure. We humans are extremely adaptable and can endure many hardships emotionally and physically. Things always get better, love returns, life is a lesson to strengthen you through its trials. But you have to have a love for it and yourself. Without love for yourself then why fight? I want you to try and fight for people like me that care and kind generous souls that offer the extension of friendship like Justin jstell725. We care, we want to help, you can reach out and spill your deepest and darkest felt emotional burdens and shadows and know that you won't be judged but loved and understood. No one knows the face of death as I do. Some reason no matter what dangers, accidents, overdoses, even attempted suicides, I still remained because something or someone wanted me to stay. To endure, to overcome. I need you all as you may need my friendship, guidance or advice. Please reach out to me, tell me your stories and lets find another way to fight this feeling of loneliness, depressions, or misplacement of your wandering soul to rest.. I am asking for your trust in me before you decide on any other avenue or course in life. If I fail then you have nothing to lose. You may go on to fulfill your choice, commit to your decision, no one will stop you.. There are many whom will guide you to the edge and help to push you over but a few that will with love and understanding embrace you and your shadows, pains, anguishes, longing and heartbreaks, with every intention to right the balance of your life with a kind word and a compassionate heart that truly loves you for everything that you are!
    Maybe we can help each other understand thing better. Maybe you will find my stories helpful. I have had many people in my life that committed suicide that I never would have dreamed that they would ever choose such an ending because it was by far never in their characters to end that way. Everyone of us have something to offer each other. Even Mr. Hackit is helping immensely with his truthful and realistic views more so than any other site. I am posting this with the utmost respect to Mr. Hackit. I came on his site for my own selfish purpose but ended up having many things revealed that I want to offer another direction as a compliment to his well rehearsed written page in offering a safe and considerate means of escape from life. I want you all that are doubtful or wish to be given a glimpse of hope and an alternative to suicide to write me and discuss things through. Perhaps with what we learn from one another we can overcome our pains. I am just like you but older, experienced in the ways of pain and shadows that grip your heart. I am a friend and I am extending my self to you, reaching out to catch you before you fall.. Will you take a chance? I am here: zumerod@gmail.com

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  71. Asphyxiation and butane sound like good options. Also some other creative ways looking for dangerous situations. Driving your car into a tree at 90 miles per hour. I'm a rock climber, so not hooking yourself in right while lead climbing (which is probably what I'm going to do) or screwing up tread climbing on purpose. I might even do deprivation if I get really desperate. Aren't we also overlooking the simple (but very effective) alcohol poisoning? Responsible for thousands of deaths in the us alone?

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  72. I've done my research and found that an Antifreeze can get the job done, though I hate the fact that it involves "suffering from breathing & chances of brain damage" got me shaking in my boots but its the risk I consider taking! See you in hell :)

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  73. I've made up my mind after a long research, I'll go for Antifreeze!

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  74. im going up to the hills, get drunk, take loads of warfarin and codeine and then get naked. the cold should do it. I feel so bad, I cant see anything in my future

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  75. Wow so many people wanting to commit suicide. I must be one in a million. Someone out there cares for you right? I have all my friends. I know they care, I had someone that was my true love. And I just feel overwhelmed with emotions. I lost a true love. I lost friends, and now i'm depressed. Honestly so close to just snapping. I'm glad I found this. At least in the moment of snapping I have something that can assist me to make it happen for sure. The most plausible one seems like sleeping pills or the plastic bag with duct tape. Guess it's meant to happen if I snap. If not, I guess now isn't my time. But it sure feels like it. Those of you reading this, nice to meet you hope you guys find your way out, and before you do, do what I did, consider why you're doing it, make sure you're 100% sure about doing it since there's no going back. and that the stress really is too much to handle that nothing can help. Right now all this stress is too much, and I know I can't handle it, Live a nice life, find love in life. And if you find true love, don't do what I did and mess it up, listen to her and your conscience rather than your head because sometimes your conscience will save you. Too bad I lost mine now, and i'm basically on edge. Love you all. Bye~

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  76. would anyone want to do this with me?

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  77. I'm thinking the plastic bag idea With the duct tape and just pass out.. Or one you didn't write,
    handcuff your hands behind your back and "accidentally" fall into a pool.

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  78. I was thinking I could simply slit my wrists and figured I would die in minutes. It seems like it could take hours that's no good, im too afraid of trying to kill myself and failing then my life would even be worse

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  79. I didn't think it would be so hard to die I want to change that, make it nice peaceful. Suicide booths but look at all these people how an stop them from kill themselves because they are sad, I'm talking about people who are ely better off dead

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  80. i have visually charted out the lethality, agony and time taken for these methods on my blog.
    might be of help to you guys.

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  81. I'm so pissed of living, i wish i was dead so badly i really want to commit suicide, i always get in trouble, i'm tired of living my horrible life, i just wanna die.

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  82. HEY EVERYONE, PLEASE IF YOU HAVE THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE, DEPRESSION, ANGER, ETC... I CAN HELP YOU GET GUIDED INTO A SOLUTION FOR ALL OF THE PROBLEMS THAT YOU ARE FACING! I CAN HELP YOU. PLEASE CONTACT ME AT: edsonfernandes@me.com
    THANK YOU!

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  83. Thank you so much for posting. It's hard to find good information online and usually just a bunch of assholes talking about how selfish suicide is and the typical "go talk to someone" blah blah. I think I like the noose tied to a doorknob. Seems much less painful than botching up a hanging from a great height. I just want the pain to end. Drugs/alcohol don't fix it anymore. Desperate to end the hurt. Thanks again.

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  84. I just want to be happy and not feel a thing anymore. I've hurt my parents so much I'm such a disappointment . I'm truly sorry. But I'm ending my life , so if you see this I love you guys more than you know , I love my 2 little brothers and I hope you guys make it out there. I'll see you guys up in heaven <3 it wasn't you're fault mom and dad , it's mine. I don't deserve to or have all I do. Thank you for everything you've done and sorry this is the child you got in return. All I wanted was you're love and acceptance , but I'm not someone who can be loved. Sorry for everything.

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  85. Fuck that. This world is pain, and for that pain i receive i shall return it. True, family and friends don't deserve to be tramatized by my actions, but with that being said, did i deserve to be tramatized by others? It is all a cycle, a process, a scale of balance. Some have to experiance pain so that others can experiance pleasure. As fucked as that sounds it is true. Try to deny it and find that it is reality. Once its over for one its the begining for another. So choose: stay and continue with the pain the world gives, or give that same pain back to the world. And for those who believe that suicide is the ultimate sin, how do you know. I think kicking god in the balls would be more disrespectful that getting rid of garbage he gave you. "Ask and you shall receive...." Blah! I didn't create this world nor mankind so why am i being punished for the actions of others as if i was the root that grew this plant? To god i say, "you created all of this and everything with it. So, come judgement day, keep yourself on the list of judgement. Blasphemy, or truth. All i ask is for you to answer that." pain...

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  86. I really hate fukking life. I haven't been happy ever. I have had health problems for years an on top of that , I deal with severe depression and I am a drug addict. I have no friends only acquaintances....I am sooo fukking sick of life and I am really thinking of offing myself. I tried b4 an only to fail and things got worse fuck it...FTW!!!

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  87. Most of the stuff won't work, people! You would be surprised of the resilience your bodies have... Secondly, I'm not sure if I'm just sick, but I was laughing at a lot of the stuff that was written in this article (i.e. a nice side effect is that your cheeks will be nice and pink or something to that effect, etc.)...the big thing to keep in mind is that most people are just crying for help (hence the reason your posting on a PUBLIC website)....the people who are already committed to doing this aren't going to risk anyone trying to talk them out of it....Anyway, most people have felt some sort of way and wanted to off themselves at one point or another...the point is, like almost everything in life, most things are TEMPORARY! Secondly, even though you might not care, do you really want your suffering to alter the lives of the people you care about FOREVER! Now your first impulse might be yes (you want your ex to be upset that your gone, etc.)...but now think about this scenario...how about sibling becoming a heroin addict to deal with the depression that you instilled in your parents (insert any person into this scenario for those of you that don't have or don't care about your immediate families).... And, what about the case where things go really awry and you not only don't succeed in killing yourselves, but you end up paralyzed or whatever...how sucky would that be to live the rest of your life with a disability that you inflicted, and one that won't allow you to off yourself?

    Anyway, I really am not trying to preach...if anyone wants to talk, hit me up...but keep in mind, a lot of these methods WILL NOT work!!

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  88. Sounds good ill just do them all in a matter of 10 minutes and in the middle of now where after i dig my own grave. I love younthank you for solving my problem. See me on the news in a few days goodbye

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  89. I kind of don't want to die, but I don't know what else to do. I made some misjudgements, and cause a huge mess for my husband and me. He doesn't deserve the mess I have created. We are in SO much financial trouble now. And it is ALL my fault. I simply cannot deal with the humiliation. The only thing is...my husband is simply going to die of a broken heart if I do this. He won't do well without me...but I just cannot deal with what I have done. We may be homeless because of me. Sometimes I wish we could die together, in each others arms. I am so sad right now. I simply can't bear it any longer.... :'-(

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  90. Seriously? Asphyxiation? This renders the whole article useless. Asphyxiation, contrary to popular and utterly random extenuation, is suffering at one of its hights. The impulse to breath is one of the strongest, and it's not easily resisted. About as easily as beating your own head in. So it's obviously pointless to even start writing this thing. On the other hand, there are some solid points in there. Another complete failure, however, is not to allow anonymous comments. What's up with that? Why does one have to leave prints in a place like this? Oh, I don't? Still, bad thinking from an honesty perspective (but that's as expected). P.S.: Reading such stuff is a relatively solid turn-off.

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  91. Life just isn't worth it. There is no point to it. No one even cares about me anyway. Tonight is the night that I am hanging myself. Goodbye....................

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  92. thanks a lot, i don't see the point in my life anymore, im getting bullied by dirty zulus. :(

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  93. ugh i hate life.............. :/ thank you henry for making this!

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  94. I tried so hard. I tried so fucking hard t make up for the wrongs i did jade. I finally grew up and gave you my heart. BUT YOU HAD IT THROWN DOWN THE ENTIRE TIME! You lied to me. You promised me so much. You made me think not all girls were the same.. i was wrong. you are all the same. you all lie. you all cheat. Fuck you. Goodbye

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  95. I'm doing sleeping pills and a razor blade. figured i can lose a bunch of blood then take bout 11 or 12 sleeping pills and FINALLY be fucken done with the bullshit. i've been pushed to my breaking point. I finally learned to trust a woman again and got snaked. I FUCKING LOVE YOU! WHY DID YOU FUCKEN DO THIS TO ME!!! I WAS PREPARING TO PURPOSE TO YOU!!! I hope your happy. I hope all the guys to cheated on me with make you fucking happy. Next time, don't play games with someone who already has a fucken broken heart.

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  96. Holy crap are all these people above me dead??
    And you guys are really serious about this?? I feel like such a whiner. I'm so glad I found this site.
    I googled how to kill myself cause I wanted someone to pay attention to me. Then I come on here and see everyone SERIOUSLY considering all of the ideas posted. Like wtf? How selfish can you guys be? I never really wanted to kill myself when I searched this, just wanted to see what was out there and I find this! My best friend's boyfriend killed himself around the same time some of these commentors did earlier this year. He killed himself because she broke up with him. And all the while his family and friends grieved over him all I could think was how bloody stupid he was. No matter what happens there is someone out there that has it worse than you. Children are being raped and forced to marry their rapists. Mothers are forced to watch their daughters boil alive. So all I can really say is GET OVER YOURSELF.
    If everyone killed themself everytime shit got hard we'd be extinct. I can understand depression and loss and pain, but don't disgrace yourself by taking the easy way out. If you need to detach from life and pretend to be dead for a few months then do it. But GET HELP all of you.

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  97. I never realized that suicide could be so hilarious.

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  98. Yh suicide is some fucked up shit l. i know must be thinking "ok some next guy coming on this website and tell me how stupid suicide is and I don't fucking care" but think the people starving and what to live they are tying to get out of a situation worse than you and make it to the top. But you are coming on a website and are able to say things or read things like this to persuade you to kill yourself that means we have the such luck to be even be around such technology. Look I'm not no 20 year old infact I'm a 14 year-old feeling as fucked up as you guys and think to my self some fucked things as well and just to see innocent people taking their live for probably understandable reasons makes me feel mixed emotions like shit if they are doing it and are happy where ever then why not me or stop fucking doing fucking stupid things or even crying but make sure when people kill themselves they get no sympathy or empathy cuz who wants to understand an idiot. But I think such innocent people dying for no reason bring more miserableness into the WORLD and I mean world because once some one you know finds this out they get upset and someone they know gets up set and the next one which may cause someone else to kill them selves and this how this has become like this on the internet. I'm 14 and saying this as long as you are alive you may find something that makes you laugh once and when that day come oh you are going to be soo happy and so proud of yourself from what you have gone through. No one knows the meaning of life so might as well play it out and see what cones of it. You might be thinking "i have been waiting long enough" but remember as long as you live there is always something just on that horizon.Just REMEMBER as long as YOU ARE ALIVE I CARE!

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    1. When I was 14, I was being cared for by my parents and had no worries. Sorry kid but just wait until all the adult shit hits you. Wait until you hit the age 40 and you realise you have no real friends, your parents are now too old (or not alive anymore) to be there for you now, you may be married and have financial pressures that are overwhelming, people just "expect" you to be able to cope because your a adult. I would give ANYTHING to be a kid again and have no real worries, have people who loved and cared for me. No offence kid but I bet your not going to be spending Christmas Day on your own. Loneliness and rejection are killers. Literally.

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  99. plz any one tell me ....how i kill my self without pain

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  100. im sick to death of every fcker puting shit on my plate considering suiced

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  101. maybe homemade explosives are the way to go if you are confident you can make them without things going wrong half way. the anarchist cookbook tells how to make plastic explosives then you just have to figure out how to make a blasting cap of some sort. You could even rig a phone to set off the bomb and then get someone else to do the deed by posting the number online on 4chan or reddit or even facebook. This is how I imagine my suicide.

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  102. Just wanted to thank the author of this site for a seemingly unique creation that actually aids us disfunctional folk who truly want to die.

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  103. Oh God. Now I feel worse. I had decided on the carbon monoxide , hose through the car window thing. I thought it would be the easiest, painless way to go. But have I just read that if my car is unleaded (which all cars post 1980's I think are), it won't work? Hell, I can't even kill myself properly!. Anyone in Australia still have a leaded car that I can borrow for the afternoon?

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  105. Im going. To kill myself but i wanna fuck before i die or during.age 19 male,st.pete florida big cock good body.usually rated at a 10

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  106. Does somebody wanna do it together?

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  107. Sleeping pill, alcohol, and carbon monoxide together sounds like the best and least painful way to go, but then why should it matter if any pain is involved its just a few short minutes of agony and the end.

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  108. Ivevbeen thinking and ive come to the thought that on new years day, ima over dose on myb2 meds so my friends anf family can start the new year with out a screw-up like me

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  109. Some really good ideas here but as far as sleeping pills don't use ambian I took 30 pills and still woke up. I need to do better. I'm like alot of people here almost no friends my wife of 25 years says every day she don't want to spend the rest of her life with me I'm a fat worthless basterd. I know I'm hard to live with but I love her and if she don't want me around no sense in being here. I've slit my wrist length ways but was found and taken to hospital. See I can't even kill myself right tried 4 times still here . So if I dint make it through tonight. I do love my kids you guys are the best but I can't keep ruining everything I touch I'm convinced you'll be better off with out me . So maybe I'll find a few of you guys where ever we end up. Larry Sickler

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  110. I think a giotine would be a quick painless way to go...where to find one though :/

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  111. Does anyone know if a 22 would do the trick? I don't want to use my 303... I think I would like some of my head being buried...

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  112. Thanks for all of the wonderful options. Hanging myself sounds like the fastest and least painful way to go.

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  113. ohh gosh ! why aint u spreading hope ? freaking bad !
    well if anyone want A GOOD REASON TO "SURVIVE" contact me

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  114. Guys dont do this its not worth it no matter how bad life is you can always make it better there is at least one person out there who will be devestated if you hurt yourself. whoever hurt you probably doesnt even realize the extent of their actions so there is always something you can do. the effort you take is not even worth it you may as well use the effort to improve your life!!!!!!

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  115. A strange truth,somethings don't change. I die as I lived in debt having run out of excuses tired of myself. Foreign in my own life. Full of apologies. Christian, Arlee, Katherine Ann Brown.

    In the novel Dr. Jeckyl and Mr. Hyde. Mr Hyde won.

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  116. I am going to take amitriptyline, mst morphine and mirtazipine and any other tablets I have. I I have been saving my medication for sometime and I hope that I do this correctly because I can't bear the thought of not getting this right. Does anyone have any ideas if this will work?
    Thank you

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  117. http://25.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mb8e8lUXCz1qbghcdo1_500.jpg

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  118. I was trying to find a way to kill children painlessly for a story I was writing, and this page is really scaring me. Are all of you gone? Please tell me you're not, I don't like the idea that I'm reading lots of people's last thoughts. Is this legal?? Btw, I'm not hating on the page or people who commit suicide (I think about it a lot too) , I'm just a tad bit scared of it. Also I'm not kidding I'm really curious as to how many of you were serious and are actually gone.
    I hope you to heaven so that your pain and suffering was put to rest as well.

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  119. i'm thinking between the pills or a blade to the throat.... i've tried hanging but the damn rope broke >=( and my neighbors found me =(. dammit life!

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  120. Thanks for the tips. deff liked the CO. quick and maybe even fun.

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  121. I wonder if the people on here who lost their husband\ wife\ boyfriend\ girlfriend\ kids or hate their job\life\school were to confide in each other maybe they would realise we're in this all together. Maybe they'd find a little hope. Fuck life's hard for most of us even the ones we envy but it's all we got And I'm yet to meet someone who knows it's any better after death. I've lived with many bad choices and held some terrible sorrow and do right now that's why I'm here but i've seen some beautiful people write some scary shit for the fact their grief is hard to bare. You must care other wise you would feel no pain and no emotion is what the heartless psychopaths of this world do everyday to fuck over the majority. I'm a failure a miserable human but I'm one of you and I hold empathy for your tortured souls. If you go , you go but if you stay it could be different. I'll take my chances with this shitty life I know, instead of a death I don't.

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  123. Thank you for the helpful post, I've spent ten years dealing with depression. I'm now almost 21, and the only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because I don't want to be able to back out - but I don't want to spend my last minutes in pain. Especially if my family finds me, I wanted to do it clean, and not make them more upset than they might be. When I was 11, I tried to asphyxiate myself with a shoelace. But I think the Hangman's noose is really the best way to do it. I just have to plan better. Though, it'd be better to do a combination. Noose, bag taped around your head, and freezing might do it(yay winter), hm. Adios, I wish you better luck in overcoming your depression.

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  124. rope on a door ill go with.

    To everyone that I knew and haven;t known yet. I wish you all best of luck. I know I have done some shitty things in my life and I wish I could change so much. After losing the only one I ever loved, I just don't want to live another day without her. Tori if if you are reading this, I love you, and I always have. I hope you live a great life and you get that bakery you wanted. You'll always be the other piece of my broken heart. Goodbye everyone.

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