Sunday, November 4, 2012

It's my life

I claim the right to be stupid, irresponsible and take risks with the life that has been given to me. I claim that right and I will fight to the death any one who tries to take that away from me.

I don't need your protection don't force it upon me.

We humans are sentient beings who are able to decide. If that decision does not harm any one but our selves then we should be allowed to make it and it is a crime to stop us.

If I am drunk and try to drive a car, I should be stopped. If I am not and try to drive off a cliff, harming no one but myself, you have got to let me go.

Why are there always people who try to protect us from our free will? Do we really need that protection? I know we make stupid mistakes sometimes and I am all for a hefty discussion with someone who is about to make one. But if after all that you can not find any logical counter argument for the decision this person has obviously made, you have NO RIGHT to interfere.

There are people in this world who have been given a death sentence by a disease that will ultimately kill them in a most horrifying and painful way. Why are there people out there trying to stop them from killing themselves? Why do these people prevent them from taking experimental drugs that have not been tested yet, but give that tiny bit of hope they so desperately need?

Drugs that could save lives now have to pass so many tests that it takes years before any of them can hit  the market. Such delays are unacceptable to people who are on their deathbeds right now. Even if you are willing to take the risk of taking such a drug that might end up killing you, you are not allowed to take that risk. Why! Why do these people have the right to decide over your life? Why do they have the power to obstruct science and progress in such drastic ways?


Just tell me why!!
And make me understand.
Perhaps you guys are right after all.

But I doubt it.


56 comments:

  1. been thinking about ending it for a long time even tried a couple of times but now with the holidays and the way my life is going why put it off any longer. i know ill be missed for awhile but then ill be forgot about. so marrychristmas to all and hopefully you have a better life than i did.

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    2. I agree with you. I want to do this right now. I cant get a shotgun so i need another method

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    3. I agree with you. I want to do this right now. I cant get a shotgun so i need another method

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  2. Be kind to your family and wait till the 26th. best of luck, see you on the other side.

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  3. Would anyone like end it with me ? if so email me at smigg41@hotmail.co.uk :)

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    1. Smigg I hope you are still with us now that it is September 1st 2014 let me know if you are at maine_daisey@yahoo.com

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  4. I just read this article and its given me a lot of clarity. Ive been contemplating this for many years and I feel as though I finally have the courage. It is my choice to live and its my choice to die. Im not worried about the people that love me and that I love because once the initially pain and shock wears off, they will go back to their lives and forget ( which is good because they deserve to have good lives without the memory of me and my pain stricken life). I am done here on this earth and im ready for the other side.
    I;ve always been so envious of people who manage to find the courage to go through with it, to actually kill themselves.
    I want to leave them with bits of me to remember.
    If anyone knows where to get carbon monoxide please let me know I am in South Africa.
    If anyone wants to skype and do it together or walk the end of this journey with me, comment here.

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  5. You don't want to kill yourself like that or any other way.Depression sucks but it will pass.Plus if you have a catalytic converter on your car ,breathing the exhaust won't kill you,just make you sick and give you a bad head ache.Please let the feelings you have pass,and they will...

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  6. The thing that I found that made it very pleasurable actually is I took 300+ assorted pills and then ate an entire container of medical marijuana edibles (infused not coated) it was a large jar and I ate like 6 and the recommendation was one. Although I was throwing up everything and my lungs filled up with fluid it was absolutely wonderful. I just thought of dying that happy. Didn't die though, obviously. It's a miricle I lived apparently, although it's mostly because I was found so quickly and I didn't take enough. So if in need definitely do that, although I recommend not mixing a bunch of different pills. Definitely go for sleeping pills and all sleeping pills. The tylinol as a reassurance is good. Also one girl I met in the hospital took like a very scary amount of an inhaler. She very nearly died too and had to completely switch out her blood using a needle to her heart from the side of her neck because her blood became poison. So both cases just do more than you think is overkill, and don't not die. I was in the hospital for a month, unconscious for a week of it, on a air thing because my lungs filled with fluid and being fed with a tube in my nose. I didn't have an appitite at all for several months and while in the hospital constantly shitting myself and throwing up. Basically if you aren't SURELY going to die don't do it. But the way I did was very pleasant and almost effective, just don't fuck up.

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  7. From the day we are born we're told what to do. We live to pay bills & survive. One sure thing in life is you will die, so why not choose your own ending. Choose your own how, when & where. End your life story the way you want it to cuz it's the only 1 choice in life you can really make without anyone else's permission. I have chosen my own ending & only I know the how, when & where 💔

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  8. Anyone in Michigan want to join me?
    Jessicamarie1091@gmail.com

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    1. If you can come to pa we can do it together

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    2. If you can come to CT, we can do it together

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  9. Hi guys. I've been seriously thinking about ending it for years, but it seems daily now since Feb of this year. No, I'm not feeling sorry for myself. My life is actually quite good. I live in sunny Florida. I have a great job. No mortgage but own my house. My marriage sucks, but that's not a reason to do it. I just feel I've had enough of this life. I'm ready to move on. Religion? I was brought up baptiat, but I don't believe in any religion. Reincarnation is my choice of belief. Endless soul energies and life lessons to take with us on our next life/ journey. I'm gonna be 48 this year and never imagined I would become "old". I always knew I would die young. I have a high IQ. can fix anything or solve any problems put in front of me. I don't get mad about much and can count on one hand how many times I've ever lost my temper. I wish there were a logical explanation or excuse to end it. But there isn't one. I just want to move on. It's the last thing on my mind every night for over a month. Is there anyone out there that thinks the same way? I am probably going to use the plastic bag and duct tape technique. It's not messy and I can go anywhere to do it. It won't be at my house. But trust me when I say, that the night I'm doing it, I'm gonna have fun that whole night. Kind of a last hoorah type of thing. Then just disappear. It will be a weekend I do this. Text me if you want to share only. Don't even try to talk me out of it! You'll be wasting mine and your time. Peace to all. 772-217-1385

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    1. Yep.. feeling the same way about my life. Every day I feel like I want to die. Sick of it, people who have never felt this way just don't get it.. it's understandable, but they should not try to tell us what we need to "think"

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    2. It all totally sucks I know

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  11. I live in mercersburg pa does anyone want to leace this world of pain with me

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    1. Not sure if you already killed yourself or not but it does seem like it would be easier for me and more comfortable.

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  12. I can relate to this very much! Anyone looking to go in Canada is welcome to contact me, life can be pretty crappy. I'll listen. 54342112movingpicsatgmail

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    1. What do u mean go to Canada? I really need something new to do w myself or I'm going to kill myself!

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  13. I need out. Have a chronic illness that I've battled for years. I want out but hoping for a way that my family won't know it's suicide. I can do a slow dance as long as I'm not suffering for too long. Any ideas?

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  15. Iam ready to go! I have tried so it's not like I just don't like my life! On so sad all the time! I have no place to live so I need to find a new places anyways!!

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  16. Why was my post removed. It says by author.
    That's me. I didn't remove. Could someone tell me why?
    Anyway, I am going out. For reasons that have merit.
    Not to downplay any else's pain. But with me it's just a matter of time. According to my doctors.
    I would really like a way out that serves a purpose.
    Like caring for an Ebola victim. Going to a very dangerous place and helping victims before I become one.
    Has anyone tried this?

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    1. I posted on a rape help website. Asking for information about resources. My first thing happened when I was 6.5 years old.
      And there's been other things by other people. So I wanted information. They deleted both posts and denied me an account. They said I had to be 16 to have an account.
      I called two doctors, but they didn't want to see me. One said it would be $600-800 for her to see me.
      Diarrhea used to kill a lot of people. You just poop yourself to death.

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    2. I did call the rape hotline. I was telling the lady what happened to me. And we were both crying our eyes out on the phone.
      But she couldn't tell me where I could go.

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  17. Iv got the gun and its time to just do it already

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    1. If you've got two and are in CT, let's do this

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  18. I wanna leave this hell hole so bad everyone is better off without me ughthere is no god so i just wanna leave this earth and b done with it already ugh!!!!

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  19. Great read. It's time. 30 years it's been coming.

    "And if the mist ever let's the sun through, I just hope I did the right thing for me and you"

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  20. Anyone in South Carolina want to log out w me

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  22. Sleeping pills don't know which ones to get ready to go

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  24. I'm going to kill myself. I have no friends and my family hates me. I have no future but pain, and loneliness. I just have one issue. I have pets that I live more than anything. I can talk to them and they don't hate me, and they return the affection and care I give them. I have a hamster, three fish and a kitten. I can't trust my family with them. And u don't want to take them to a shelter because I want to make sure that they get all the care they deserve. If you have any ideas, please text me. I don't care if I get Catfished or anything cause I'm going to die anyway. 330-842-9514 I know no one's going to talk. I'm just a pathetic pile of shit anyway. But no harm in trying.

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  25. I want to die does anyone want to join me

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  26. So yeah I have been thinking about "catching the bus" for a while now. I'm ready to "buy my ticket." I'm 13, life will not get any better by now. I lost my bestfriend, everyone hates me. I hate myself. I have an amazing boy that loves me, my mom has never really favorited me. I won't be missed is what I always tell myself, is it true though? I need help. Can someone give me advice? Am I to young? Do I have more to live for? But yeah I may be ready but I need some opinions?

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  27. How can I go without anyone seeing anything terrible.im a burden to everyone, and they know it, but I don't want anyone stopping me.

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    1. It's awful too, if they find your body. They take a bone saw and cut you open. Take all of your organs out, squeeze all of your poop out of your intestines. Then they have an 'organ bag' they plop all of your organs into in your abdomen. Cut the top of your head off and take your brain out and weigh it. I think if a mountain lion ate me, it would be a merciful death. They hold you in their claws and bite your throat or your head. Then eat you. So for me, no bone saw.
      Sometimes those people rape you when you are dead even. So I think to be killed by a big cat would be quick and merciful.

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  30. I am gonna keep this short.But yea it's all gone horribly wrong for me .Im 54 now and I guess I may have 20 yrs of natural life left.
    Thing is my life's in bits and I don't want to be around another day alone and poor.
    But self termination is not easy.Even tougher folks than me doin life prison can't bring themselves to it.
    Some can most can't .
    I think to jump would be good way to go.Bug fear factor to overcome but.Reminds me of those folks falling out of the twin towers.For them it was jump or burn.Crap I'll never forget watching that like it was a movie.
    I'm just thinking slow self destructive behaviour is my only way.I think of pills and jump if I can get the right stuff.
    See yee all on the other side folks one day

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  31. I just don't see the point anymore. It's all so absurd and I'm caught up in it

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    1. I think you got it right. Life is absurd an there is no point. You have to make one yourself.
      Why you are all caught up in it is because you are doing too many things at once. Figure out what is really important to you and focus your attention to that.
      But that's just my thoughts on it.

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  32. I'm from Missouri and wanna die anyone wanna go with me???

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  33. I'm from Missouri and wanna die anyone wanna go with me???

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